Traveling pics

Yay for Saturday nights.

Finally. Feb. 21 is here!! I have a big party tonight at Nocturnal. Let's hope we can pack this place out. I'll be taking pictures tonight. I'll post them when I upload. Things are going great here. Got an ok job (hey!! it's a job and I'm glad I have one. ) and I started working out again. I'll be turning 29 in two months and I swore to myself I will not be overweight. I'm doing cardio and using a kettlebell. Google it if you don't know what it is. They are awesome and I love it.

I won't be able to come to Belize in April due to my job. :-( I'm very upset about this but, what can a girl do? I miss mom terribly. <3

Graflin and I decided to build shelves and make our pantry bigger. We also decided to plant a garden together as soon as the weather warms up. I think this will be fun and a learning / bonding time as well.

Miss everyone and hope all is well with others.

<3

I love it!!

Jenny, what were we doing here? ha!!
Kevin, you're busted!! love you.

I love my little man.

R.I.P. Betty // 04.06.35 - 02.04.09

I remember as a child with my lil brother, David, how excited and anxious I got when we left Nebraska to drive to our hometown, Boone, IA. We had much fun visiting Uncle Jerry, all our cousins, and Aunt Betty. I remember her little bitty house, the room with all her dolls in it. awesome!! I would just stare at the dolls wanting to play with them something fierce knowing I couldn't because they were for show only. I never understood at the time why I could only look but not touch the flawless dolls. I always thought, why not play with dolls? What's the use of having dolls if you can't touch or love on them? Just one of Betty's memoriable rules.

I loved how David, Travis, and I would walk to the parks and play for hours. We would play until the sun would set. Rushing to get home I could almost smell Betty's cooking and hear my family's laugh. After we would come inside I remember hearing Betty say "Go wash your hands and come eat." Meatloaf!! My favorite. Betty could cook. She lived for it. She was the one who would plan and cook every meal when we would visit. She was the rock on my dad's side. My favorite.

Great memories I never will forget. Many more too. I'll see and remember those in my dreams to come.

<3

I got to talk to mom tonight.

Yay!! Felt great to talk to to mom tonight. I got to talk to her lover, Enesto tonight. I am so happy for many reasons. Living with Graflin and feeling stability again in a long time even though I still haven't found a job yet. The economy is so bad here. The crime in Memphis is getting worse and worse everyday. Crime everywhere but I'm still keeping my head up and hoping things get better in the job area. Barely making with house call massages and doing entertainment for a few clubs and restaurants here.

Dad is finally leaving memphis Thursday. Yippee!! Two months of seeing him everyday in my apartment was a test. A test of patience that I didn't do so well in but if you knew my dad I think you would understand. It worked out though. I made it out alive. ;-) ha


Off to a better subject....
I got bangs!! First time since the 80's dude!! Posted pic above. I'm feeling the bangs so you know I got to strut my stuff.

Love and miss everyone!!

14 degrees tomorrow

It's going to be 14 degrees tomorrow. The high 14!! In Memphis. MEMPHIS!!!! Saying and thinking that word in the way i spelled it makes me think of my brothers making fun of me. Love it. Anyway, damn. It's freaking cold. Tonight I watched the most amazing concert for the 1298341278362122 time. Beth Hart. If you haven't heard about her i encourage you to watch her Live at the paridiso DVD. YOU"LL LOVE IT.

I've moved in with Graflin in much of a faster pace because of my father. All is well. Even though I go a lil crazy, dad is packing my stuff for FREE and less stress for free or is it? I laugh because my friends who have always told me. "be nice to your dad, he's a nice guy." are now saying "when is he leaving again?"

i laugh!!

I have never been happier. Life just feels right. I wanna know how to love. i wanna know how t love my brothers, my mother, my lover... even when the voices in my head are telling me that I'm shit. I wanna learn. I think we can do that if we pray and love. I love GOD. I'll leave that light on. Lyrics by Beth Hart I never will forget.

Losing My Mind

I've been under a lot of stress since the beginning of December. My father, is someone who lives in his own world so to say. I know he means well but he drives me insane!! Does every daughter say that about her father? Dad has basically kicked me out of my apartment and proceeded to take it over like it is his. From moving my decor around so he can fit his stuff on my shelves, to hanging pictures up on my walls, to going through my dressers, throwing away things that I've kept for years that mean the world to me, anything that can test my patience, he is doing.

I live in a high rise and even though I am a social butterfly in public, I tend to keep to myself and not associate with my neighbors. I like to keep it that way. Unfortunately, my father has been bugging every neighbor and every tenant in the Gilmore. The manager has told me several times that dad is driving the people insane and asked if I could control the situation. How do I do this? I've tried talking to him and he states that everyone is out to get him. Paranoia much? I didn't realize I was working in a mental institution.

But!! Things are looking up. My boyfriend and I have decided to live together. Dad finally decided that maybe it's time for him to leave since I'm moving in with my boyfriend. You think? Sad I had to do something like that for him to get the hint that he was overstaying his welcome.